There are days when I feel excited to climb mountains. With joy, I roll up my sleeves and get my hands dirty as I move and create. And other days, everything feels dull, no strength, no energy. This new version of me I dream about, the new world I want to create feels like an impossible task. There are plenty of videos on YouTube that discuss this topic. Great TED Talks and books. I keep reading about all those revolutionary tools, binge-watching, and listening to them like an addict, desperate to finally chase away the feelings holding me still. But days go by, and I keep ignoring my goals as if they were going to happen just by magic. Nobody´s going to do the job for me. Even though I ask for advice and need someone to hold my hand sometimes, I am the master of my fate. Nothing´s going to happen unless I do it.
See, we are full head into 2018 and just like me, you are still there, wondering where all this time has gone. All the resolutions you have made, enthusiastically to fully embark into 2018, big smile and full of hope – your best year so far. Yeah! But it seems like you have already lost track of your dreams. I see you. Don´t try to fool yourself by blaming it on this New Year´s resolutions – yearly debate. There is absolutely nothing wrong with that tradition. The problem, Boo, is that your fear took control over you.
And please, don´t pull another of your addictive delusions. Your hard past, your messy family, this fucking asshole ex-boyfriend, it´s just too easy. How long will you let these take control of your life? And those stories you tell yourself do not make you special. It´s how you rise from them that makes you very special, my Baby. You might think you are not smart enough, not beautiful enough, not brave enough and all of that. I could tell you, YES you are, you are all of that and more. But I am not sure it would work in the long run to look at yourself through someone else´s eyes. Remember, the only thing that really matters is what you think of yourself. And that, too, requires some work. Yep! The reality is, it doesn´t matter how many theories and testimonies you read or watch if you remain inactive. That´s actually the perfect example of energy and time wasted. Like when you watch videos on how to be healthy while laying on your bed, eating a big pot of ice cream like you did yesterday and the day before – and lying to yourself ( once again) that tomorrow, finally, you´ll stop treating your body so badly.
Don´t turn today into a mistake as you did yesterday. Don´t wait for this perfect thing that might eventually happen to help you take action. You might end up waiting forever. Just make it happen. Imperfections are beautiful. They tell our stories and show how far we´ve come. Perfection is something that is built up while in action.
The sun rises every morning to wash out the pain of yesterday, to give us another opportunity to create magic, to dance and laugh, to be and do better.
And you, what have you decided to create today?
Remember that our imagination, fear- or love-based, is bigger than reality. You know that already. You know all these mantras by heart. There is no magic trick. You are the only one on board, the Captain of your soul.
As our grandmother always says, when someone postpones something for tomorrow, sure enough, they won´t do it. It can be acceptable once in a while, but do not let this be you—your whole life. You´ll end up like those miserable people on the internet who hide behind fake names to criticize the doers.
Just make the big plunge and remember that consistency is key!
See you on the other side. 😉
Mfiè y´a Enyiñ 